I'm baaaack!

Vacation was wonderful! The weather was awesome, the house was great, the food was delicious, and the lighthouses were beautiful! It was a great vacation...except for B constantly checking his work email. Oh well, I didn't let it rain on my parade too much!

Although I spent a lot of time lounging around and reading the new Clive Cussler book I purchased, I did get to do some of the things on my list. The outdoor drama we went to was so cool...but it was seriously lacking in the hot Indian department. B, Matt, and I went to Ocracoke Island and saw the Banker Ponies, the lighthouse, the British Cemetery, and had snow cones. We also went and saw the Hatteras lighthouse with Mom, Dad, and Matt on a different day.

B got the SUV stuck in the sand one day so Dad and I drove up to Pea Island to try to help him get out. Luckily, a nice man had a tow strap and we were able to pull it out easily. Of course, B was pissed that we didn't go ahead and get 4-wheel drive when we bought it...but he was the one who said we would never use it.

We went to Kitty Hawk one evening for a buffet dinner which was great. We waited forever to eat but it was definitely worth it. Matt had his 28th birthday while he was down so we did a huge seafood dinner back at the house with fried shrimp, giant fried scallops, a half bushel of crabs, flounder, homemade French fries....it was way, way, way too much food for the 7 of us but it was great!

I was sad to leave but as soon as we got home, I was so happy to be back at my own house so I could sleep in my own bed and have a bathroom to myself. It was a great vacation though and I would do it again in a heart beat!

Unfortunately, things are not going well for my grandfather. His health has dramatically declined since we left on vacation and he's gotten to the point where he won't eat unless you feed him. Jerry and I are both worried that he won't make it to Larry and Amanda's wedding at this point so I'm in scramble mode. B and I are going home this weekend...and I ordered a couple of outfits to wear to the wake and funeral. B still needs to try on his suit to make sure it fits. I don't feel like we're going to have to make the decision to stop the dialysis because he's going to go on his own. I only hope and pray that when he dies, it is painless and peaceful.

Although we knew this was going to happen, it seems to be happening so fast and we find ourselves completely unprepared for what lies ahead. Seems like the dream I mentioned having in my last post is more foreboding than I originally thought. Prayers are much needed right now.

And the verdict is....

Well, I had my appointment with the ENT yesterday. He says the only option is to have the mass removed but he assured me that it would be a piece of cake compared to when I had my septoplasty. Surgery is currently scheduled for 7/21 so I will miss a couple of days of work. In the meantime, he wants me to go see an allergy specialist so that I can get a full panel of tests and get started with treatments. He said it is pretty obvious that I have other allergy problems if I'm still having issues after using Veramist, Zyrtec, and Singulair. Allergy shots...what fun!

I had a horrible dream last night that my grandfather decided to stop dialysis now rather than waiting until after Larry and Amanda's wedding. For some reason, in my dream, the day he stopped dialysis was also going to be the day he died. I don't remember many of the details but I do remember me holding his hand and begging him to stay just a little while longer. I immediately forced myself awake and since it was almost time to get up anyway, I decided I didn't want to risk falling back to sleep and into that horribly sad dream.

On a happier note....

If I can just get through today and tomorrow, vacation will finally be here. On Saturday I will be seating on the beach and starting my vacation sunburn! I haven't packed a single thing and I've got so much to do at work before I leave. I'm starting to get a little stressed! My MIL will be coming tonight to get the crabs and turtle since she will be taking care of them in my absence. B still has to talk to the neighbor about watering the plants..and I'm sure he forgot to stop our mail! So many things!!!!!!!!